Well I did it. I have finaly deleted that number. My stomach is full of fear,i know whats "in the post". thanks to Jake, for the encouragement, I feel so alone. I have never been able to do this on my own. This time im out of options. My uncle spent £15000 sending me to rehab last year. I did a NHS one 3 years ago. This time its detox by blog. Ive got vitamins, beer, bubblebath & books. There is also a bloke, well more of a boy really. Hes 26, looks 17. Im 44 by the way. Hes leaving the rehab where we met in a couple of weeks or so...coming to see me. I have to be ok by then. Im shaking. This is really IT. I get to sleep tonight, after that its insomnia, crawling skin, shivering, aching bones & an overwhelming HUNGER for something that wants to slowly kill me. Mad huh? I thought I was an intelligent woman...shit, i AM an intelligent woman. I just did an incredibly stupid thing. Now i pay.
Bedtime. Goodnight.