I have never been so afraid of another human being in al my life as i was today. Andy had been getting steadily crazier since he has been here. Today he was supposed to be leaving. it took me 3 hours to get him out of my flat, & he scared the life out of me. i have never met true madness before today. it was like i was in a horror film. he wouldnt go. one moment he was laughing in my face, saying how devastated my mum was going to be when he got the rehab people to tell her id been using. then he was saying he loved me & trying to kiss me, then he was calling me a dirty bag head. then he was saying if i let him take some topless pictures of me he wouldnt tell them, then he was demanding money. then he was laughing at the fact that i was shaking in fear.as he went out the door he showed me one of my pictures he had stolen from my box in my room, of me naked, taken years ago. i flipped at this point & attacked him as he walked up the road & managed to get it back off him. I ran back home & locked the doors & 2 minutes later he was at the back door, trying to get in. then he went again. 10 minutes later i was sitting shaking on my bed when hes suddenly there looking in through the window with the most terrifying smile on his face. then he started singing some strange song. i was so frightened i couldnt catch my breath. I have sent an email to the woman in charge of the rehab, telling her my story from when i relapsed to now. she phoned me & has assured me she is not going to tell my parents, but wants me to keep in touch. i have just found out he has arrived back there. i still feel like i am in shock. i still feel afraid, even though he is 4 hours away. what a day. now i have to stop using again, all on my own. bring it on. nothing could be worse than what i just went through.